I opened the door...

Artiste extraordinaire : Esthero - "I drive Alone"

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... and dropped my bag on the floor.

First thing i did was taking a cell phone out.
I dialed 5 numbers. one by one.
And about 5 times, i smiled as i left the same message :
" We had some unfinished business, didn't we ? Well guess what... i'm back "
I kept on similing as i threw the phone somewhere over my shoulder, knowing i wouldn't have to use it again for a long time.

I took another cell phone out of the bag and like a kid turning his video game on for the first time after finding it under the christmas tree, i turned it on : My local cell phone. i was back for real.

20 minutes later, as i was coming out of the shower, i heard the familiar incoming-text-message beep coming from my cell :
" Welcome back soldier, be downstairs in 10 minutes "

8 minutes later, when i stepped out, the car was already parked in front of the house and the driver was standing by the door (they hadn't forgotten how much the small details count, i was impressed).
10 minutes later, i was there. The place i loved the most, a white tent set in the park, table for 6, fresh seafood. I smiled as i sat down with the people i had been separated from for the first time since birth, my bestfriends.

Three words were enough to put my brain on memory-shuffle mode : " how was it ? "
Only one word made an appropriate answer : "chaos"

Saying that life is a rollercoaster is an understatement, people...

When i left home in december, i unplugged all the electronic applicances, cleaned the floors, closed all the windows and doors, emptied the fridge. I just had the feeling this trip was gonna be more than a few days long.

• At the beginning of december, my pregnant friend and her boyfriend ended their 5 years relationship, which led her to depression. Can you even imagine what it's like to be disrespected, lied to and cheated on by somebody whose child you're carrying in your body, a child that will become an unbreakable bond between the 2 parents for life... i've seen depressed people before, but this one was carrying a human being in her body. it was scary ! In the last weeks of her pregnancy, right when the pressure became too much for her to handle, she got sick and was taken to the emergency room. The baby we had all been waiting for, the baby she had been talkin about for more than 8 months could never see daylight... and she almost died.
  
• 3 days later, as me and my friend were packing to return to France so she could rest with her family, we received a phone call. Some boy had just slit my 17 years old friend Alex's throat right in the middle of their high school ( ASOY, American School of Yaounde, Cameroon). Why ? The boy claims Alex tried to "seduce" him.

I took the friend who had lost her baby to France, then headed to Cameroon, Ivory Coast, and Senegal to be with my people as we all wanted to support Alex's family.

A week after my arrival there, my friend who had lost her baby passed away in Paris and her boyfriend who felt responsible for everything that happened commited suicide.

My life became a TOTAL MESS. It felt like some kind of end of the year wipe-out... It was harder than words will ever be able to express. I was like a dead mind in a living body. I didn't know what to do or what to think. I seriously didn't feel safe.

They say life always goes on. As impossible as it first seemed, it did. Life went on.

I kept on going back and forth between Paris and Montreal.
I did it so much, it became.. my job. crazy but true.
A small Paris-based hotel group hired me because they needed somebody who didn't mind going back forth all the time.
So much happened.....

The hotel experience was very pleasant, it kept me busy, it kept me from drowning in misery.
I was so comitted to my job, i fell in love with it.
Me and the hotel business are now in deep, pure love. I need my own hotel, anybody wanna buy me one ? lol

Life went on, the world kept on turning,
life has to go on, the world has to keep on turning,
Things change,
cherish the day,
every moment counts,
save for tomorrow,
live for today,
but most of all, never forget


by the way, i'm back.