Split personnalities... i did it again

Thanks you guys for the comments and numerous emails about my last post, it was a necessary post lol
good to know, the message was appreciated... for those who've been lazy in the past 48 hours, scroll down lol

Tuesday night, it happened again, but this time it was just too much
i'm talking about the item # 5 of my last post : i am too many people at the same time !!!

Tuesday night, i was *chilling* (sorry shawn for the use of that word... i know u love it... lol) at a b-day dinner/party in Atlanta (you can count on me for 12 hours express trips from dc to atlanta), and as time went by and i started interacting with people, my bestfriend who was there too was shocked by the different versions of me that came out in such a short time !
He made me realize i was easily going from ice cold with person A, to very warm with person C, only sayin yes/no to person F, laughing hard with person V to the point some people felt like i was doing it on purpose or that i had something against them, others were just confused...

example : person H walks up to me starts talking to me and that person doesnt inspire me too much, i use my minimal english, and dont talk much... a few seconds later person L starts talking to me, and as person H walks away from us, he hears us cracking jokes in english !
i didnt do it on purpose, it's just that H hasn't proven to me that i can make the effort of speaking constantly in a foreign language to him, i have nothing against him, he"s not a bad person...

little things like that...

Now when i throw in the mix that boy who only discovered that i can be a nice person after i've known him for 10 years, and who is on his way to becoming a friend now, i"m asking myself a few questions...

i'm not a person with many faces, it's just that my job being mostly about human relations i learned " fast adaptation " in order to get what i want from the client, and i guess it slowly crept into my life...

What i realized from my bestfriend's very long speech is that i should :
* give people time and a chance to really be themselves around me before i classify them
* say what's on my mind and just be my damn self, the same person, the whole time so people know exactly what to expect from me
* keep the work strategies at work lol

Hoping it will make my interactions with other human beings better i'll try that !

before september starts....

... let me update this blog quickly so i can say i posted 2 entries in august lol

*** i still have very little time for this, but i'm trying to make it work because i kinda like it ***
** I'm not ready for a full post yet so instead of just writing one in mid-october, i'm giving you this right now **

1. I love you guys, all of you guys... no, really i do, you guys have that lil' something i like :-)

I'd also like to complete the thought i started in my last entry : " i'm really giving minimal consideration to my first impressions or to anything i hear about anybody, making efforts and coming at everybody with a sincerely good attitude. So far all of you have been amazing! dare to disapoint me and i'll freaking throw you off a couch or something... said !

2. i'm crazy... i mean... i am... really... 3 speeding tickets in 5 days in south beach/miami
the last day the cop actually told me i was crazy lol, he wished me a safe flight out of miami and said he was not gonna give me that 4th ticket
because he was exhausted lol :D

3. Speaking of love (or the temporary absence of it), my single status is absolutely amazing...
am i glowing in a special way or what ? random fine dudes on a cruise/then the beach walking up to me and starting conversations about the weather

4. laughter IS really GOOD, REALLY ! Laughing for 5 straight days relaxed my pores and my facial muscles, people, make me laugh !

5. No matter how hard i try i can't be myself with somebody until i'm really sure the person can handle me, i try to be like " fuck this, i'm
myself 100% 24/7 " but i don't like complications or unnecessary things/situations/debates so... for now things will remain like this, i'm staying an oyster lol
i'm saying this because someone i've known since 1997 told me last week that he had never imagined how cool i can be !

6. This is where the little talk stops...

This is an open message to any-and-everyone

" We only have ONE life to live, ONE !! that life is not about little things like walking around in your neighbourhood,or some he-said/she-said/but he-said...
i'd like to inform you that whether you believe in god or not, someone somewhere has made it possible for us to become better people if we want to...
This one and only life is about experiencing, thinking, sharing, growing, maturing, improving,...
I see A LOT of people missing out on A LOT of things, because they're rolling around in the 2 square inches of their comfort zones, mmm... not good
holding on to things that really don't matter, mmm... not good
making things more dramatic than they really are, mmm... not good
procrastinating, mmm... not good
You NEVER know what the next person can bring you in this life, so being an ass pretty randomly, mmm... not good

There is A LOT to discover out there : bigger, better, more intense things

There are A LOT of tragic things out there : war, poverty, diseases

A LOT of help is needed out there, but you have to help yourselves first...

POTENTIAL is a gold mine that we all have inside of us... what we lack is usually the tools to dig that damn gold
we HAVE to acknowledge the fact that we don't have these tools and look for them !

So on 08.28.07, Soldier,a tired black man is officially asking you to PUSH yourselves UP, give a kick to boost the energy of those around you... because you NEED them,
let them help you on the way up, show support, be there for your people, ask for help when you need it, be positive, forget yourselves sometimes because it's not always about you, be strong soldiers on the quest for something better, and make sure you're ready for it because it will ALWAYS come unannounced...

Together let's build strong and successful communities, let's just LIVE !!!!!!!

i don't know where it came from, but that was my message for today.
i'm impressed by my english skills these days.
thank you. goodnight.

So much to blog about

That's the main reason why i can't update my blog, i have too much to blog about !

Last time u guys heard from me i was dying in my bedroom with a broken laptop, a broken relationship and no job.
Things have changed since... that's typically soldier-ish !

* Laptop : My ex broke my laptop right ? well his father (who's also his boss) wrote me a 3000 $ check, and promised me he'd make his son work like a beast to payback every single penny of the money... (insert huge smile here)

* Work : i didn't lose the job, i ended up gettin a better position on the project and travelling to Africa, to my own country : the Ivory Coast for 2 weeks ! Those 2 weeks were absolutely insane though... gettin all the authorizations, permits, deals, and contracts to build a hotel in 2 weeks is quite crazy... i didnt sleep much, i had to be on gmt time, then work with people who were on gmt +2, others in nyc : gmt-4, then others in China, which is gmt +8, others from vegas, which is gmt-7... how can a human being be awake for all those time zones ? the answer is simple : no sleeping !

* Life : i love my family. i'm single. might be looking. am i ? maybe. but not too much. my mom makes the best pasta. white sand beaches. my nephew is trilingual : french, english, italian. too much alcohol. social obligations = horrible, i'm thru with them for the next 3 weeks. lobster, delicious. viva mercedes benz and leather interiors. renting an island for a weekend and not steppin in the water once, what a nonsense ! viva martini. mmm there were sharks in that water. i'm moving to nyc sooner than you think :) i keep on meeting some of the most unique and extraordinary people... i'm grateful... take notes : if i meet some of u, make sure u put ur weirdness aside and show me the best u have to offer, soldier is not dealing with people's insecurities, craziness, lack of maturity, selfishness or anythin else that doesn't make sense unless u start meaning something to him, why ? because i don't have to :)
i just realized that at some point i must have realized i was wasting my time and changing to make people happy, and i stopped it without making a conscious decision. it just happened.
Hanging out with my nephews and lil' cousins must have helped !
if u're not 5 years old, wipe ur own asses weirdos !

other than that i love y'all :)

i'll write a more " organized " entry soon :)