To my bestfriend...

... Enzo ...

Since you finally managed to find this blog and i know you read it, just wanted to welcome you here !
See, " bestfriend" to me is not a title i just give to a person of my choice, it's a position you gotta earn... i look at all my friends, and when i compare them all, i see that person A, D, W are the best... they are the best friends that i have ---» they are my bestfriends.... i dont have that high school mentality of just picking them and then always be stuck with them, even if the connection we had changed...

My privacy is MY FUCKING PRIVACY Enzo, it's my MOTHERFUCKING PRIVACY !!
I was already slowly coming out to you, why did you have to go through my things to get your confirmation ? No, the fact that we're in the same situation doesn't mean we can get together, are you out of your mind ?
What it means though is that you'd better stay discreet for your own good, and keep your nose out of my business...
People that invade my privacy are not eligible for the bestfriend status, so :

Merci pour ces moments de joie, tous les fous rires, tout ce que tu m'as apporté, mais là tu as dépassé les limites, je prends mes distances...

Frustration...

Not being able to sleep on a 12 hour Paris - Tokyo flight or even worse falling asleep then waking up thinking you slept at least 8 hours and realizing you either slept 45 minutes, or you actually slept for 4 to 5 hours but the plane hasn't taken off yet because of the bad weather or some other crazy ish meaning the 12-hour nightmare hasn't even started yet...

Being punished for (or paying the consequences of) something you didn't do and for some wild reasons (like covering somebody up), not being able to set things straight...

Being stuck in traffic going to the airport knowing that you already missed your flight, or being stuck at some airport on xmas...

Getting an invitation to somebody's church, waking up early on a sunday am and getting there just to find out you hate it but you can't show it because it would hurt your friend's feelings... guess what ? you can be sure the 2 hours service will be at least 3h30 long that specific day !

Going on a 3-day trip and getting your suitcase on your last day because the airline had failed to transfer it during a connection...

Having somebody around you who's everything you WANT but not everything you NEED...

Cooking that one dish you've been dreaming of for weeks, taking the time (more than 2 hours sometimes) to prepare that amazing meal, being almost there and then in the last 5 minutes : letting it burn because of a stupid phone call

Thinking a whole lot of stuff but not being able to express your feelings when the time comes...

Being in a long-distance relationship and spending the last hours of the night beside your partner who's tired and HAS to sleep because he's taking an early morning flight and has to get to work as soon as he gets there... you just can't sleep... it hurts so bad...

Forgetting simple things you never worried about, once you get to the exam...

Wanting to say " i love you " and getting in a never-ending debate with yourself about the timing, not knowing how the other feels...

Being denied something you qualify for...

Fighting over something with somebody who's about to make a stupid decision (like turning left on some crazy one way road in the bushes in a remote area of Wisconsin with no possibility of making a U-turn, instead of going straight lol ) when you know you are 100% right AND you are also gonna have to deal with the consequences of whatever decision they make...

Being stopped at the last minute from doing something you had planned for weeks or months, for reasons that make very little sense or things you have no control over...

Calling and getting no answer right when you have that ONE special thing to say to somebody, knowing that a few seconds later it will be too late, things will just not be the same...

Needing sex NOW and realizing you're not gonna get any for a LONG time (that's me, a few years ago on a 2 month-trip to China)

For control freaks like me, not being to figure everything out

Simply... talking to somebody who's not listening...

Too many sources of frustration in this world for me...
God... give me the wisdom, the patience, the intelligence, the maturity i need to avoid (or at least deal with) frustration because it's dangerous for my stability...
And i know i'm not the only one in this case...